“I Abandon you Each Night” by Millicent Borges Accardi

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I Abandon you Each Night

You abandon your waking
in soft squares, you try to neglect
your worries and shut down
the war-voices,       one on each shoulder:
and—if it is important
to you—you sigh awfully and listen,
or you ignore      and try                   to avoid
like poison gas
because this is a solo                performance
that only you can sing despite the
urging of others           to couple and adore
and procreate. March. And—as if and as if—
It were different.
Oh Man, I abandon          you each night.
         My heart ache,                           my fears, my love,
my softness.  It is as if I      roll over.
It as if I roll over                     and touch nothing.



Millicent Borges Accardi, a Portuguese-American writer, is the author of two poetry books, most recently Only More So (Salmon Poetry). Her awards include fellowships from the National Endowment for the Arts, Fulbright, CantoMundo, Creative Capacity, the California Arts Council, The Corporation of Yaddo, Fundação Luso-Americana, and Barbara Deming Foundation. She lives in Topanga (canyon). Other ACM works: “Dispatch from a Pandemic: Topanga, California.”